Chin Up

A little girl lost
in the streets of this world,
rented out for profit
lost in the cause.
Little girl smile,
there is hope yet!
Keep those teeth showing,
they will have their time to shine.
Though you have lost thus far
Give the world a chance.
What you have been seeking
Will come to you at last.

Decadence Descending

Decadence descending from free-floating sky
Sprinkling it's magic on all that pass by.
Self-indulgence ripens with passing of time
simple pleasure sought in no form a crime.

Trepiditions releasing their stressful grasp
self conscious thoughts leave--to stay in the past.
Land of laughter and love, enjoyment to all
no thought of danger, for it will not fall.

These are my feelings when I am with you
a wonderful pleasure that intices two.
For in the deep pleasures of night
you release the tension that you fight
in bright light of day brought on by outside,
to lay down your burdens and in peace abide.

Self Acceptance-Unveiled

I gently traverse the path to the sea
wondering what it that's drawing me.
Intensity gravitates my vision toward the horizon
with waves crashing, foaming like mane of a lion.
Desperately searching, with raised eyes I scan
trying to see the change if I can.
But everything remains just as I left it
from blue sky to ocean to sandy grit.
Then I realize why all seems new:
a veil has dropped from eyes of blue.
No longer in mourning for the life I once had
I look at myself and am glad.

Think of Something

what is it that's blocking my thoughts today
Why can't I come up with anything clever to say
wandering blindly in my mind
but no glorious thought can I find
come out of hiding
get out of bed
and think of something good to be said.

Darkness

Into the darkness
deep and strong
into the darkness
I was in all along
the darkness of tomorrow
the darkness of past
the darkness will come
and I cannot last
Last through the flame
last through the fire
even before it begins
I now tire
lost and hopeless
all alone
lost and hopeless
to creep in at night
to sneak into a illusion
to sneak into this life
to sneak into a world without strife
pretending I'm here
and knowing you're not
Into love
that I never sought.

Breaking Out

Turning, tumbling, trapped so tight

Pulsating pressure pauses plight

Being boxed brilliantly benign

Turning, tumbling, trapped in time

Don't have a box? I will give you mine

Jacks Jillion Jars of Jarred Jelly

Jack Black jarred a jillion jars of jarred jelly
Jack Black stacked the jillion jars of jarred jelly in Jill's basket
Jill jogged with the jillion jars of Jack's jarred jelly to Grandma's
Grandma jumped Jill jogging with the jillion jars of Jack's jarred jelly
The jillion jars of Jack's jarred jelly fell
Now there were a million jillion jagged jars of jelly that jack jarred

Wrapped Up

Keep me wrapped up in your chains,
fighting, struggling all in vain.
Keep me wrapped up in your tethers,
burning from turning in the leather.
Keep me wrapped up in your kiss,
teeth and gnawing, but somehow it's bliss.
Keep me wrapped up in your touch,
bruises, blinding, needing crutch.
Keep me wrapped up in your love,
violently you come to push and shove.
Turning corners in the dark,
running into wall left with your mark,
stopping, standing all alone,
I now return to my shallow home.

Illusion

The power of illusion slowly creeps into your eyes
the power of illusion you thought hidden by lies.
But I know with wisdom from my soul
that our relationship together is not whole.
For you, something is not there,
while for me everything is so perfect I cannot help but stare.

Unreciprocated love felt in the tension between
a substance in our love that can almost be seen.
I sit and cry, I face the loneliness of my love
at least you stay, though I feel it's from my selfishness.
One day I may be able to let you go, unable to face the pure illusion
when you look into my eyes admist the passion, and see someone else.

Mistakes

Mistakes are made, bridges are burned;
I myself have so much to learn.
Husbands wed, children born from that bed,
but leaving them to be raised by one parent instead.

Blaming myself, for you are no where in sight;
I don't sleep through the lonely cold nights.

Trying to live through the pain alone,
trying to create an illusion of happy home,
but inside i cry at the thought of doing it myself.
My feelings, my needs are put on a shelf.

Don't get me wrong, the sacrafices are needed
and all the cares of my children are heeded.
They make me smile, bring peace ot my life;
but this isn't what I had in mind when I said I'd be your wife.

Mistakes are made
and I'll take the blame,
but why do I have carry
to be the only one caryying the flame?
Why do I live with all the shame?

Ride the Current

Take a turn riding the current reaching into your soul
follow the pattern of swirling madness you can't escape
circling unlogically, straightening your course
but fate is not listening, she is in control
taking the reigns has no affect
she is a ship that won't be steered
ride the waves you have been given
cause struggling will only drown

Crime

From the caverns deep and cold
came the winter as foretold,
on a sheet of driving wind
carrying with it our every sin.
So on this day began a great weeping,
as from the cave the air was seeping,
and into darkness and to dusk
went the evil to lands it must,
spreading wide and spreading far
spreading to every sand bar.
And into the darkness,
into the mist,
stepped a figure no man could resist:
the evil of lust, the evil desire,
the evilness came straight from the fire
and into the light to swallow it whole,
to drink up every living man's soul.
And ashes to ashes
this snake did bite
and no man standing
gave it a fight,
for from the darkness soft and drear
came what we have all come to fear.
The thing of greed,
the thing of time
the thing that we call crime...

The Bird

What is this world that I once knew
over and over the scenes I flew
Diving down
over the trees
deeper and deeper
till I can see bees
Over one little leaf I flew
and on it a bug that I once knew
but into my beak
It snapped like a fly
and on the wind I flew by
a quiet scene
a quiet house
and beside it
a small quiet mouse
I swooped in a whirl
and grabbed it in beak
and headed off toward a mountain peak
there I rested
and flew somemore
right into a person's door
and there I was trapped
by a woman and broom
I flew out the door
in the living room
and over the chimney
over the trees
I went back home
on the fastest breeze.

Anger

anger flowing, anger abounds
anger seeping, onto the ground.
anger from no where, anger from space
anger to put him into his place.
oh why doesn't he care?
I don't want to lose his love, but now i dare
to tell him the secret
to tell him my all
to tell him that I dare to fall
into the black, into the night
far, far out of his sight
cause his behavior can't stay
his behavior must go
I have needs too, you know

Another Child Lost

A cobblestone street of silent goodbyes
a little girl in the antique lamplight cries
hands upon eyes, covering face
while mother walks away, keeping pace

She doesn't want to go, but is forced by the rain
The rain made her do it once again.
Whispering her sorrows, Mother walks on
another queen lost, as if only a pawn
Another child taken before the coming dawn

And why was she taken, why did the mother leave?
If not for selfish desires, for her own repreive?

The mother was told, by those who know
to just let her girl cry, to let it go.
She was told by those who know
to just leave her daughter, crying like so.

And so to the system, another child is lost
how long will this go on, and at what cost?

Destination Unknown

Traversing a cold dark street

on this lonely highway with no one to meet,

I'm searching inside, finding a gap

Not knowing what it is that I lack.


But that's why I'm here

on this empty highway

wandering without restrictions

able to make my own way, regardless of contradictions


Where will I be when I finally reach home?

Only God knows, even to me it's unknown.